Just realized yesterday was World Suicide Prevention Day. I have had suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. I have commit suicide and even felt the relief of thinking that I was successful and the panic of realizing that I was not. Depression is complicated and I feel like a lot of the advice I see about it is trite and often comes from a perspective that assumes it can be overcome with sheer willpower.
I doubt that I will ever be completely free from suicidal thoughts or depression, but I actively seek treatment, I attend therapy, I build in support systems with family & friends, I meet with peer networks, and I take medication that comes with the reality that I will take it for the rest of my life. I feel like I am worth it. And I feel like you are worth it. I fear responses to suicide or depression that stigmatize or make assumptions. If you ever need to talk, I can listen.